Am I Pushing Myself Too Hard? – Still Trying to Figure Out This Whole “Routine” Thing…

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Routine is a funny thing. My life is becoming quite disciplined and I’m still trying to decide whether or not this is a good thing. Up Early – Get Inspired – Workout – Stretch Up nearly every weekday by 5:30am, I’m out of the house between 5:40 and 5:50 to go to YYoga for either their 6:15am or 6:30am class. TRX twice a week, Spin once a week, YFit (strength and plyo training) once a week, yoga twice a week. On my way to class I always listen to an inspiring podcast. After class I stay behind to stretch and …

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The Real Reason I Started This Blog (It Initially Had Nothing to Do with Helping Other People)

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Yesterday I wrote a blog post that included a fair amount of swearing. Well, more swearing than normally comes out of my mouth in the span of two weeks. It’s not my preferred way of communicating, but I guess yesterday I was in that sort of mood. Although the post ended up getting a lot of hits, and some positive feedback, I felt weird about what I’d written.   I’m managing editor of a magazine now, I thought, Is this really the message (the persona) that I want to be sharing? That night I opened up one of my journals, …

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“Thanks for Causing a Rift Bitch”- And How I Responded (A Coffee Shop Confrontation)

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I like to think that I’m a pretty nice person – too nice of a person? — so bitch isn’t a word that I am entirely used to being called. And even though the reason for the comment was completely ridiculous it still hurt. After he left I wrote down his exact wording in Evernote. I wanted to remember this. — The seating at Brekka Bakery is a little bit sporadic. It was a Saturday afternoon. I had about two hours before my singing lesson, and the cafe was packed. I was lucky to find a seat near the wall, …

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My dreams are no smaller than they were before, but the way that I’m approaching them has drastically changed.

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I feel as though I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be at this moment in my life. Have you ever felt like that before? Like everything was lining up precisely as it should?  It’s a strange feeling. In a way, so much has gone wrong, and yet I feel as though all of that had to go wrong in order to get me here. I don’t feel stuck anymore. I used to feel so stuck. I remember standing behind the desk at Club 16, answering phones in my shiny black jacket and tight workout leggings, and feeling miserable. I had …

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At 5:30 in the morning the world is quiet. That’s why I love it. The quiet scares me.

Today marks 14 days in a row of waking up between 5:30 and 6:30am.  I’ve tried to do this sort of thing before, but it’s never worked. It was never sustainable. I’d make the declaration that I was going to start waking up early, but I wouldn’t adjust my bed time. I’d set my alarm for 6:30am as I was crawling into bed at 1:00am. By day three I’d be so sleep deprived that my ex would find me passed out on the couch with half a banana in my hand. I’d wake up feeling groggy, disappointed and annoyed at …

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It Was All Just a Series of Small Decisions

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After two years of fairly consistent practice, I think I might finally consider myself a yogi. I’ve bought into the full lifestyle. Early mornings, meditation, a vegetarian diet, and now a mala that I slip on every morning before doing anything else. The progression towards this way of living was incredibly slow; a series of smaller decisions which lead to bigger decisions, which lead to rather life-overhauling decisions. I think everything starts out that way. When I was in university, I didn’t have very many healthy habits. Yes, I exercised frequently but I didn’t really know what I was doing. My mantra was go …

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Even with all the evidence that said otherwise, I was adamant that all I needed was 6 hours of sleep.

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I’ve started getting enough sleep. Maybe that’s a funny way to start a blog post, but it’s true. Don’t get me wrong, I’m definitely NOT perfect, but this new habit is starting to have a major impact on my life when it comes to productivity, focus, and overall happiness. Here’s what I used to do: I’d start to feel like I wanted to get MORE done during the day, so I’d make a resolution to start getting up earlier. Way earlier. The problem was, I didn’t adjust the time that I was going to bed. Six hours of sleep? I …

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How do I want to move? How do I want to feel? This is my adventure; time to explore.

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Be Adventurous:  “Willing to take risks or to try out new methods, ideas, or experiences.” About three weeks ago I received the ‘be adventurous’ mala bracelet from mala collective. The process of choosing a mala that resonated with me was fairly exciting. In what areas of my life did I want to experience growth? I chose the ‘be adventurous’ mala not because I wanted to drop everything and start travelling the world tomorrow, but because I wanted to start exploring myself more deeply. Two and a half months ago I ended a six and a half year relationship. All of …

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Journaling, Browsing, and Dancing: Taking Ownership Over How I Love to Spend My Time

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What is your favorite way to take a moment for yourself each day? This was the question that I was asked by Rachael from mala collective. This should be easy, I thought, but then I hesitated.  I felt like there was a correct answer, and I knew what that answer should be. As a yogi, I felt like I should be answering with meditation, but that’s not true for me. Although I certainly feel better after meditating (on those days that I actually convince myself to do it), I find the actual process of sitting down and doing nothing excruciating. I do it, …

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How I Chose My Mala Bracelet from Mala Collective

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Last week I received a mala bracelet from mala collective as a gift. I am very grateful. In exchange, I wanted to share my experience with this very powerful piece of “jewlery” (can you call it jewlery?). They told me to browse their website and look for a mala that resonated with me. It took me awhile to choose, but once I found the right one, I knew it immediately. At first, I was drawn toward the I am confident mala bracelet. It was a beautiful blue colour and the website said that the Blue Agate stone that it was …

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