At 5:30 in the morning the world is quiet. That’s why I love it. The quiet scares me.

Today marks 14 days in a row of waking up between 5:30 and 6:30am.  I’ve tried to do this sort of thing before, but it’s never worked. It was never sustainable. I’d make the declaration that I was going to start waking up early, but I wouldn’t adjust my bed time. I’d set my alarm for 6:30am as I was crawling into bed at 1:00am. By day three I’d be so sleep deprived that my ex would find me passed out on the couch with half a banana in my hand. I’d wake up feeling groggy, disappointed and annoyed at …

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It Was All Just a Series of Small Decisions

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After two years of fairly consistent practice, I think I might finally consider myself a yogi. I’ve bought into the full lifestyle. Early mornings, meditation, a vegetarian diet, and now a mala that I slip on every morning before doing anything else. The progression towards this way of living was incredibly slow; a series of smaller decisions which lead to bigger decisions, which lead to rather life-overhauling decisions. I think everything starts out that way. When I was in university, I didn’t have very many healthy habits. Yes, I exercised frequently but I didn’t really know what I was doing. My mantra was go …

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Even with all the evidence that said otherwise, I was adamant that all I needed was 6 hours of sleep.


I’ve started getting enough sleep. Maybe that’s a funny way to start a blog post, but it’s true. Don’t get me wrong, I’m definitely NOT perfect, but this new habit is starting to have a major impact on my life when it comes to productivity, focus, and overall happiness. Here’s what I used to do: I’d start to feel like I wanted to get MORE done during the day, so I’d make a resolution to start getting up earlier. Way earlier. The problem was, I didn’t adjust the time that I was going to bed. Six hours of sleep? I …

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How do I want to move? How do I want to feel? This is my adventure; time to explore.

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Be Adventurous:  ”Willing to take risks or to try out new methods, ideas, or experiences.” About three weeks ago I received the ‘be adventurous’ mala bracelet from mala collective. The process of choosing a mala that resonated with me was fairly exciting. In what areas of my life did I want to experience growth? I chose the ‘be adventurous’ mala not because I wanted to drop everything and start travelling the world tomorrow, but because I wanted to start exploring myself more deeply. Two and a half months ago I ended a six and a half year relationship. All of …

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Journaling, Browsing, and Dancing: Taking Ownership Over How I Love to Spend My Time


What is your favorite way to take a moment for yourself each day? This was the question that I was asked by Rachael from mala collective. This should be easy, I thought, but then I hesitated.  I felt like there was a correct answer, and I knew what that answer should be. As a yogi, I felt like I should be answering with meditation, but that’s not true for me. Although I certainly feel better after meditating (on those days that I actually convince myself to do it), I find the actual process of sitting down and doing nothing excruciating. I do it, …

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How I Chose My Mala Bracelet from Mala Collective


Last week I received a mala bracelet from mala collective as a gift. I am very grateful. In exchange, I wanted to share my experience with this very powerful piece of “jewlery” (can you call it jewlery?). They told me to browse their website and look for a mala that resonated with me. It took me awhile to choose, but once I found the right one, I knew it immediately. At first, I was drawn toward the I am confident mala bracelet. It was a beautiful blue colour and the website said that the Blue Agate stone that it was …

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The Man I Met at the Bus Stop

As I walked toward the bus stop I saw an older man with a large belly leaning back on the bench playing a relaxed version of air guitar. As I got closer to him, I smiled. He motioned to the seat next to him, “you can sit down if you like.” He said it as if he expected me to turn down his invitation. I did. I was happy standing, but that didn’t mean I wasn’t interested in talking to him. I could smell the liquor on his breath, but he was definitely lucid. He asked me where I was …

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“Perfectionism is, at its core, about trying to earn approval” — I was late for my first shift as a Zombie at Fright Night’s. This is What Happened…

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I want to share two books that have really inspired me this month. Those books are Daring Greatly by Brene Brown and Mindset: The New Psychology of Success by Carol Dweck (affiliate links). Daring Greatly was written after Brene Brown’s TED Talk on Vulnerability, and in it she shares her research on shame, perfectionism (this one was incredibly eye opening for me) and connection. “Perfectionism is not self-improvement. Perfectionism is, at its core, about trying to earn approval. Most perfectionists grew up being praised for achievement and performance (grades, manners, rule following, people pleasing, appearance, sports). Somewhere along the way, they adopted …

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I Reinvented Myself, But I Don’t Feel Any Different

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I’m in the process of reinventing myself. I’m not exactly sure what that means… but that’s what I’m doing. I’m reinventing myself with a new haircut, an upcoming makeup tutorial, some new clothes (I think I want to experiment with being a hat person), and a photo shoot on Tuesday to cap off the transformation.  That was last week. I was SO excited about this HUGE TRANSFORMATION back then, but when I got home Tuesday night, after dying my hair a bright purplish; reddish brown, I caught myself starring at the ceiling with a thought circling above my head like those …

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My New Bedroom: The Before Picture

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I’m surrounded by books, pictures and shelves that need to be put up, clothes that need a dresser, and makeup that needs a table. Right now, my new room is pretty close to the definition of chaos, and sharing this picture makes me feel incredibly vulnerable… but I’m sharing it because I want to document everything. My life is in transition right now, and I want anyone else out there who is also transitioning to know that it is okay for this period of your life to be chaotically crazy and not entirely put together.  I want and aspire to …

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