“I went through a brief period of being a good student… But inevitably it faded” – ‘Not That Kind of Girl’ by Lena Dunham (A Review)

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I recently finished reading Lena Dunham’s new book ‘Not That Kind of Girl,’ and wow. Where do I even start? When I first opened the book, titles like ‘Who moved my Uterus’ and ‘Girl Crush – the time I was almost a lesbian, and then vomited,’ made me laugh out loud. This was my experience of this book: a combination of morbid fascination and uncomfortable head nods. I laughed (a lot), but I also – and I don’t know why I had this reaction – often covered my mouth with my hair in horror. Holy shit. I can’t believe she …

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What I’m beginning to understand about perfection, shame and connection

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“Gary’s scapulas used to stick out in a way that made Burton aware of the elegiac beauty of the human who was his grandson. This was his curse, he now understood, to see things at a distance, to appreciate – that awful word. His intellect was always there, mediating his experience, narrating his life as if he wouldn’t understand it otherwise.” – an excerpt from ‘Pond’ (a short story from the collection ‘Alone With You’ by Marisa Silver). On the flight across Canada I finished reading the first of ten books that I brought with me for a three week …

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“I always hoped that ‘you’ would be the one to correct them” my mom told me years later.

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“Where my foot falls, I leave a mark, whether I want to or not.” – John Patrick Shanley As I write this I am sitting on a plane, flying to Toronto. I have a plan to call my mom when I arrive at the Toronto airport and tell her – voice laced with unbearable guilt – that I somehow slept in and missed my flight. “I don’t know how it happened,” I’ll say as I let my breath become overtaken with panic. I don’t know why I feel tempted to play that sort of prank, but I do. I guess, depending …

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Last Night I Took My Seat at Urban Campfire, Did the Chicken Dance, and Owned my Style

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No one can tell me that I’m not beautiful, unless that’s what I believe.” – Jackie Kai Ellis Last night I attended Urban Campfire – a Crave Vancouver event. I had dinner with a room full of strong and powerful female entrepreneurs, heard their stories, and bonded over marsh mellows dipped in crème brûlée. It was a magical evening. The stories that were shared – finding solace during menopause when books on that topic are found in the ‘ailments and disorders’ section of the book store; a women’s experience through a hysterectomy; several stories about the shame experienced after a …

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This ‘gut feeling’ people refer to feels a lot like fear to me. How do you tell the difference?

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Is it intuition or fear? Over the last several months, I’ve been putting a lot of energy into slowing down and listening. I used to be so distrustful of this thing called intuition, but now I’m curious. I want to know what it has to say. You don’t have to ask for advice quite so often, said an energy healer that I went to this summer. You know. Her words hit me hard. I know? With that simple statement she gave me permission to trust my feelings. It was an incredible gift, but one that had some confusion strung into …

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Creative Life – An Online Artist Mastermind that Explores Discipline, the Creative Process, and Fear

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I haven’t shared too much about some of my other projects on this blog, but I wanted to take this opportunity to share a link to a website that I have been in the process of developing over the last several months. The website is called Creative Life. The concept is an artist mastermind. I gathered together seven artists who have agreed to, once a month, share their stories. But these aren’t just any stories. These are they’re own personal reflections about what it actually takes to be creative. They talk about their fears, insecurities, triumphs, and most secret reflections. …

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“The soul always desires that which most reveals its true nature.” – Danielle LaPorte’s ‘The Desire Map’ (A Review)

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Over the last couple of weeks I have been recommending this book like crazy. The impact that The Desire Map by Danielle LaPorte has had on my life is sort of enormous. I’m not over-exaggerating. I have read A LOT of books about ‘self-improvement,’ and this book is different. First of all, it’s not really about improvement, but attunement. What do you want? What do you really want? I realized that I’d never legitimately answered this question. Ask me one year ago, and I would have said: I want prestige, awards (LOTS of awards), multiple homes, centre stage. Now… I’m …

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My 2 Week No Sugar Cleanse: How I Did it and What I Learned

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A couple of weeks ago I decided to do a little experiment. I decided to try a 2 week no sugar cleanse. That’s two weeks without any added sugar. When I originally shared my intention with my goal-setting group, the original plan was to simply cut out sweets. I expanded it a bit. To the best of my ability I also eliminated: any artificial sweeteners white bread and white rice honey (including the organic raw honey I have in my pantry) dried fruit It actually wasn’t that hard. I recently read Gretchen Rubin’s book Happier at Home (I’ll be writing …

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I Think I Unintentionally Emasculated My TRX Instructor

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Since the beginning of November I’ve started taking TRX fitness classes twice a week. Suspension trainers hang from the ceiling and everyone is challenged to do exercises that require balance and an enormous amount of core strength. I was pretty uncoordinated during my first class – struggling to keep up with the pace as I fumbled with adjusting the length of the trainers – but that changed pretty quickly. In just four weeks I could feel myself getting stronger and more confident with the exercises. I started pushing myself far, really far, past a level of discomfort that would have …

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Experiments in ‘Fluid Identity’ and How I’ve Been Using Tony Robbins’ 4 Step Formula for Ultimate Success

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Habit formation is something that I’ve been interested in for awhile. Next to the thoughts that we think, our habits make up a large chunk of our identity. I put identity in italics for a reason. Ever since beginning this blog, I’ve felt a large amount of apprehension around the concept of identity… specifically the idea that identity is static. That you are who you are, and that’s it. It just didn’t make sense to me. I couldn’t accept that sort of dreary finality. I wondered if there was such a thing as a more fluid identity. Ever since I …

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