The Universe works in mysterious ways. It is February 1st, meaning that my countdown (for making $7,000 in one month) officially expired today. I had pretty much resigned myself to the fact that this just wasn’t going to work out. Obviously. I don’t have an agent, and I have yet to book a professional acting job.
So, imagine my surprise when I logged on to my online banking account and saw this:
Current Balance: $7,005.02…. WHAT THE FUCK!!!! Okay, I apologize… I never swear on this blog, but I just about nearly pissed myself when my eyes focused on this number. Where did it come from? Well, I didn’t make it. The truth is my student loan for school just so happened to FINALLY (I’ve been waiting for it for awhile) come in yesterday. The total for the student loan: $5,460. So, in order to get to $7,000 I needed to already have $1,540 in my account. They haven’t taken rent out yet, so that is almost exactly (+$5) what I had. OH MY GOD!!! Honestly, what are the chances? They seem pretty slim to me.
Do you think that the universe is maybe trying to tell me something? This stuff works!!! It has never been so clear to me, AND I didn’t put nearly the amount of attention towards my goal that I should have. What would happen if I really meditated in front of my goals EVERY DAY! If something like this can happen from only looking (let’s be honest… glancing) at my goal every day, would would happen if I actually put energy into it. What would happen for you??? TRY IT!!!
I’m trying to write a literate blog post, but I’m having a little bit of trouble. Every thing I thought I knew about the world has sort of been blasted right now. I thought I believed in the law of attraction… but I didn’t, not really. I didn’t think that it could do something like this. I didn’t think it had this sort of power, and regardless of everything that I write on this blog, I didn’t think that it could work for me… BUT IT HAS!!
It also couldn’t have come at a better time, or on a better day. Not only is the law of attraction working, but so is the Artist’s Way. I am discovering my authentic self. I am becoming less and less afraid of voicing my opinions in the outside world. In class today, during a discussion on how to define good art (a discussion headed by the always brilliant Kelly-Ruth Mercier), I suddenly became possessed by a passion that over took my body and came spilling out of my being… utilizing a voice that I didn’t realize that I had until that moment. THIS is what I believe! I believe in something! I don’t know why this is weird for me to say, but I feel as though I have buried my opinions and feelings for so long, that suddenly sitting up and speaking this passionately about something that was meaningful to me sort of felt like a shock to the system. I suddenly felt like I understood who I was. These past months I have been so in my head, trying to intellectualize everything, including my identity… I obviously got no where with this and was growing more and more confused with every passing day. Isn’t it fitting then, that the truth of who I am come out when I am not in my head at all, but operating from somewhere in the depth of my soul.
I AM AN ARTIST!!!
What is it that I believe? I believe that within every artist there is a soul that yearns to create. It is then your duty to work with your physical instrument (your body) until you can reach a point of mastery that will allow your muses’ power to swell out of you in the most effective of ways. It is only through your dedication to your craft that you can enter into that mystical place of creation. That place where you lose yourself so completely in your work, that when you step out your memory feels foggy… but then you look at the footage, at the canvas, at the page and you think to yourself… wow! I did that? Yes, you did. You were possessed by the muse who only visits the most capable and the dedicated of artist’s. True art comes from the authentic, the open, and the brave.
That’s what I believe and WOOOO! Does that ever feel great to say. Wow. I don’t know about you, but I am going to have a hard time sleeping tonight!