Now is the ONLY time you EVER Have

Sleep. This is something that I really struggle with, partially because I feel like I don’t have enough time to do it. I regularly turn off the lights between 12:30-1:00am (and then proceed to wake up betwen 6:30am-7:00am), and that’s just not working for me anymore. As a result of these late nights I am consistently tired throughout the day, and have difficulty functioning at my best. Here’s a little side challenge for myself (and maybe some of you will join me if you also neglect this area of your wellbeing): what would happen if I slept for at least 7 1/2 hours a night every day this week. What if I demanded this of myself, and made sleep a priority? Made myself a priority! I had a pretty insanely busy week last week, and this has carried over  through exhaustion (which has resulted in a minor chest cold, some unhealthy eating, and many mid-day naps). It has also affected my ability to concentrate, and to focus on the work that I need to be doing.

I read a quote in a book about meditation last week that has stayed stuck to my mind. I haven’t been able to get this passage (and what it means) out of my head. Maybe this is what has been exhausting me (I apologize in advance if upon reading this quote I break some of your paradigms and keep you up all hours of the night as well). Here it is:

“You actually have a choice in every moment: the choice of how to be in wise relationship to this moment, inwardly and outwardly, no matter what is happening. By taking responsibility for your own experience in this way, you are taking a profound and potentially transformative step toward both healing and genuine well-being and happiness, not in some “better” future that may never come, but in the …only moment you ever have for living, for breathing, for loving, for being… namely this one. You already have this power. It is innate in all of us. All it takes is paying attention, and being kind to yourself; and persevering in remembering that you are alive only in this moment, and NOW is the ONLY time you EVER have for making choices, and that this now is ALWAYS available to you. Every moment is indeed a new beginning.”
– Jon Kabat-Zinn
The bolded section of the above quote is the section that I haven’t been able to forget. “Now is the only time you ever have for making decisions.” There have been so many times in my life when I’ve stopped myself from doing something with the excuse “oh, I’m not qualified” or “I don’t have enough experience” to do that job. Or times when I’ve talked myself out of doing something I’m really interested in with the rationalization: “I’m too late to start learning how to dance, or learn piano, or start following my passion.” BUT this is the only time that you ever have. Screw time and all it’s rules. This is your life, and you have every right to start living the life that you want to lead right now! Who cares about tomorrow! Not qualified? Get qualified! Wish you could play the piano? LEARN! Have a novel in your head that you want to write? Write it!
It’s crazy to think that life is about surviving, living for the weekend, and working 40+ hours at a “job” whose only purpose is to pay the bills. I feel like I can’t accurately explain all of the explosions that are going off in my head right now, but I’ll try my best.
Life is supposed to be fun, and exciting, and it’s not supposed to be taken so seriously. Our life is all we have! (I’m not going to go into the after life and all that. What I’m talking about right now is what we know for sure). “Now” is all there is. SCREW FEAR!!! Start taking risks. Start doing those things that you are absolutely terrified of doing. Start crossing those things off your bucket list.
What sparked this rant? I’m tired of being tired all the time. I’m tired of watching my life go by in a daze, and of craving coffee so that I can keep my eyes open for just a little bit longer. The only way I am going to be able to see and grasp all of the amazing things I’m attracting into my life,  is if I’m alert enough to notice them.
I realize it’s already 11:30, but as soon as I press publish I’m going straight to bed and I am going to get a good night’s sleep.
Good night… because I can’t wait to say good morning.
  • journey to orange living

    Hope you slept well and get 7 1/2 hours of sleep every night this week!

    • Christine Bissonnette

      Thank you very much! True to my word I went straight to bed after pressing publish, and turned out the light at 10 to 12. I fell asleep immediately, and got up at 7:10am. Not quite 7 1/2 hours, but it was pretty close. I didn’t get home from work until 10:30pm, so that’s part of it. Tonight I will be getting into bed at 10:30, and aiming for lights out at 11. It was such a great day, that I’m excited what repetition and consistency will do. I think I heard that you should aim to get up and go to bed at the same time every night, so I guess I’ll have to see…

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