E Squared by Pam Grout – Experiment #4
In my first attempt, I found this experiment from the book E Squared by Pam Grout more stressful than empowering. As the clock ticked down towards the end of my allotted 48 hours, I finally had to shrug away any disappointment that I had not been able to attract a FREE Grande dark roast coffee from Starbucks into my life. Hoping for success, I thought I could wrap my head around such a simple manifestation (especially since I had done it before on several occasions), but alas! Not this week. That being said, I did manage to attract a 3 bus ride commute in record time – each bus pulled up exactly as I arrived. Pretty sweet.
In order for this experiment to work you have to not do one thing: doubt. You’re not allowed to doubt. Perhaps I set myself up for failure at the beginning of the week by first deciding that I would try to manifest something that I had been trying to attract into my life for over a year now, with much frustration. Although I didn’t exactly intend it, I realize now that I started this experiment with anger. Anger that I had not already been able to attract it months ago. Even as I asked the universe to bring it into my life, I actively pursued it like a ravenous dog. My efforts resulted in a lost lunch bag, a lot of walking and a strong desire to punch a hole through a wall… any wall would have been sufficient. I really and sincerely wish I could tell you what it was that I was wanting to attract, but I can’t quite yet. I can tell you that it has to do with my acting career.
After the 48 hours were up on this first experiment, I thought that I would try for a cup of coffee instead. This too was met with failure… although I did get a free cup of coffee at a seminar I attended, it wasn’t quite what I had envisioned.
Where did I go wrong?
Obviously doubt played a central role, but was there something else at work here?
“All of us have an underlying sound track that goes something like this:
- There’s something wrong with me
- I’m not good enough
- I have no talent
- I don’t deserve it
- I can’t do it
- It’s too hard
Sweeping negative statements like these are what we call false prayers, the default beliefs to which you march in obedience. The good news is they’re not true. The bad news is they operate as if they were true. They’re your own personal amulet that you unwittingly carry everywhere you go. You wouldn’t dream of plowing through life without them because, well, they’re just so familiar.” (expert)
More than getting past normal doubt, the success of this experiment makes a rather large demand of you. It demands that you put aside any beliefs about what is possible. We all have a mistaken belief that the world operates by certain rules: it takes this long to be successful, making money is hard, etc. These beliefs are hard to put aside.
In focus there is power
In a seminar she held (view below), Abraham Hicks explained that “in focus there is power.” Unfortunately our past beliefs dilute our focus, thus diminishing our power (we are our own worst enemies). I’m also currently plagued by a sometimes debilitating fear of failure. I was afraid that if I let go and allowed myself to unapologetically and fully believe that I would get a free cup of Starbucks coffee, and then didn’t get it… well, that I’d be disappointed and embarrassed. My resistance was really so silly, now that I’m able to step back from it.
Check out this video by Abraham Hicks on how without time and space is instant manifestation. It’s a quick 6 minute video and I promise you that, no matter how you’re feeling, it will instantly raise your vibration.
Although, if you’ve never heard of her before, check out this youtube video that explains it. Thank you for reading.
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